smorgasbord dva

[a_flyleaf]

(dva = 2)

1.
Been a couple weeks since I started poking around here again, intentionally taking things slow… not subscribing to or commenting on too much, because I am very prone to notification overwhelm and subsequent social burnout. The original idea was to slowly get more active, as a “reward” for sticking with Dw for $arbitraryPeriodOfTime, but I actually like this slower pace a lot! It hasn’t induced the “bored → refresh page → devour whatever’s there → repeat” cycle, and that’s a good thing in my easily-fixated book.

Also means that when I do login here (it is very nice to be able to access my Reading Page logged-out), I do so with the Intention of engaging (leaving and/or replying to some comments, maybe subscribing to or at least poking around somewhere new), and it feels extremely chill and good.

1a.
I don’t really know what I’m doing here, either with my own journal or in general, but maybe that’s a weird mindset to be approaching this whole thing with anyway. Is it a neutral/pleasant experience? Have I already ~interacted with new people~, which was half (ok maybe more than half lbr) the impetus for dusting off this account in the first place? Yes to both! There need be no further Grand Purpose.

1b.
Have I mentioned I like absurdism, optimistic nihilism, that sort of thing? I do. The idea that life doesn’t make any inherent sense, doesn’t mean anything more than whatever we want it to mean, is ironically the most sensible and meaningful approach to me. Personally. Insert fifty disclaimers here about how this is not saying I think it is The Best Philosophy Which Everyone Should Follow; it just meshes nice with my personal cocktail of neuroses and beliefs :>

2.
Reeling this back to Dreamwidth, I do admittedly feel a little out of step with all the heavy fic focus, giant walls of fandoms and ships… these! are not! “Inherently Bad”! things!!! tumblr did a small number on my willingness to assume people on the internet assume good faith, yeah.

By sheer coincidence I am very heavily Into Something right now, and have been since early 2023, and also writing fanfic for it! (Not shipfic, per say, although close interpersonal relationships are a heavy focus and that’s a whole ’nother ramble.) But like, I don’t have an Ao3 account, I kinda just sit in my own corner drawing and writing not-prose for things that catch my interest for months on end, and usually I do not feel like I have the brain space for another potential fixation until the current one ebbs.

Idk where I was going with this, but maybe I’ll ramble about The Fic more???

3.
Oh, ig a good reason to figure out What To Do With This Journal is that I have a website, and a blog that ostensibly I update ~monthly. I actually have not done that because I keep wanting to update other pages on the site but Not Doing That, which clogs everything in an arbitrary bottleneck for -checks watch- It Has Been Four Months. Hm.

Uhh something something DW journal for XYZ, website-blog for ABC? Actual website is better for less-ephemeral things, but I’ve got good faith in Dreamwidth’s longevity so it’s kinda moot. Comments (and lack thereof, on my site) are the biggest thing, ig. “This must be a Professional Complete Post (with citations and award nominations)™” perfectionismitis applies regardless. Hmmmm.

Comments

[vriddy]

It hasn’t induced the “bored → refresh page → devour whatever’s there → repeat” cycle, and that’s a good thing in my easily-fixated book.

I found something similar when I started becoming more active here. I might try to refresh a lot but the Reading Page just doesn't move at the same pace as other social media platforms do, and even if it induced grumpiness at first, in the end it works a lot better for me and my brain. I don't browse logged out though, I follow too many friends-only journals now and would miss a lot of locked entries :D

I'm not sure what other kind of focus would suit you better, but I regularly see people who don't care much about fic, ships, or even fandom at all on addme, if you'd like more variety on your reading page! :) Best of luck figuring out what kind of space you'd like to create for yourself!! :D

[a_flyleaf]

Cheers to finding a better pace! :D I have poked around addme sporadically & will definitely have to check back in when I want new journals to read. Many thank!! :>